Daughter of Lies
A place where I can (sort of) be myself.

On supply

Whenever I find a viable source of supply (eg “friendships”) I always wait for the clock ticking down until the time bomb is about to explode. This is the true life of the non NT, the psychopath, the sociopath. We often don’t have long lasting bonds with others. Seek, search, destroy. Not that it is always intentional, but it is always inevitable. It’s a waiting game. I can always mimic, but never embody what it takes to form a true bond. There are a few exceptions to these rules, but they are not the norm. I wonder how long my current supply will last. I am a heavy drinker and often become sloppy when I drink - lack of impulse control > what feels good > masking. I played matchmaker last week with a few of my “buddies” and we will see how this goes. I group and desert. I was mostly angry that I got so drunk I wasn’t able to successfully get laid the other night - I was sloppy in my game due to drink. I was impatient and irritable that I didn’t get what I want when I wanted it. However, my other target - my main target I should say, that game is coming along nicely. Patience is on my side in that case. I can’t wait for that time bomb to explode. Until next time.

Reblogged from letswatchpornon, Posted by memewhore.

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Reblogged from civilwhore, Posted by elizabethjane.

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scrlett:

no offense but my favorite hobby is staying hydrated and beautiful 

johnlockinthetardiswithdestiel:

bill-holmes:

tardis221b:

teacupsandnetflix:

It cracks me up when the actors on a show are also the producers because I always picture them casting themselves like

"Who’ll play the main character? Ah yes. Me."

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sorry but

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u can’t beat the monuments men

umm excuse u

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don’t mess with the Polar Express

Anonymous asked:
Have you ever felt guilt? Or had the urge to help someone?

psychogendered:

I conflate guilt with feelings of ‘man I fucked up this parasitic relationship and I’m upset that my feeding source is gone’ so probably not. Especially for harm done against those I will never know.

The second point goes into the concept of altruism which I don’t believe exists. If I’m exerting more than a minimal effort to help someone there must be something in it for me.

psychogendered:

I’ve been thinking a lot about how humans constantly fail one another. I keep few acquaintances because invariably humans are worthless in the long run. It’s all a matter of what one can get before another shows that they provide no lasting benefit.

Everything is inconsequential. That would include human relations. I typically like to have a band of admirers, but that’s just my narcissism speaking… I only care about relations with those who make me look better, anyways (if they don’t already provide some kind of financial, sexual, or just slight pure relief from boredom that is). They’re all superficial relationships, but aren’t all human relationships really superficial anyhow?

(Source: muzet)

inter-webs:

*sigh* why am i better than everyone

(Source: 6yr)

Reblogged from sixpenceee, Posted by sixpenceee.
sixpenceee:

Reddit has a page (r/LetsNotMeet) dedicated to stories about stalkers, being creeped on & strange encounters. The stories here are supposedly true, and are people’s unfortunate experiences. Here are the top 10, that make your heart skip a beat. The real fears in life are ofcourse humans and what we are capable of.
Trigger warnings for everything here. Stories may include sexual abuse, child abuse & physical abuse. 
THEY DIDN’T KNOW I UNDERSTOOD SPANISH: The reason I will always hesitate to take public transportation espically during the night
NO GOOD DEED GOES UNPUNISHED: I … just … just read this
DR.RAMSEY: He needs to kept in jail for the rest of his life
MY MOM USED TO CLEAN HOUSES, SHE QUIT AFTER THIS: I would quit too
STRANGER UNDER THE BED: Her story is many people’s worst nightmares
ROOMMATE WANTED: FEMALE ONLY: Oh jesus
THE SMILING MAN: They made this into a short film
I’M HER UNCLE: The reason to keep a watchful eye on your children at all times
TERRORIZED FOR 2 HOURS: Trust your gut feeling
DON’T TELL MOM: Dogs are the best creatures on Earth
Feel free to post your own LetsNotMeet stories on this reddit thread or on tumblr. 
You may also like: GLITCH IN THE MATRIX

sixpenceee:

Reddit has a page (r/LetsNotMeet) dedicated to stories about stalkers, being creeped on & strange encounters. The stories here are supposedly true, and are people’s unfortunate experiences. Here are the top 10, that make your heart skip a beat. The real fears in life are ofcourse humans and what we are capable of.

Trigger warnings for everything here. Stories may include sexual abuse, child abuse & physical abuse. 

  1. THEY DIDN’T KNOW I UNDERSTOOD SPANISH: The reason I will always hesitate to take public transportation espically during the night
  2. NO GOOD DEED GOES UNPUNISHEDI … just … just read this
  3. DR.RAMSEY: He needs to kept in jail for the rest of his life
  4. MY MOM USED TO CLEAN HOUSES, SHE QUIT AFTER THISI would quit too
  5. STRANGER UNDER THE BED: Her story is many people’s worst nightmares
  6. ROOMMATE WANTED: FEMALE ONLYOh jesus
  7. THE SMILING MAN: They made this into a short film
  8. I’M HER UNCLEThe reason to keep a watchful eye on your children at all times
  9. TERRORIZED FOR 2 HOURS: Trust your gut feeling
  10. DON’T TELL MOMDogs are the best creatures on Earth

Feel free to post your own LetsNotMeet stories on this reddit thread or on tumblr. 

You may also like: GLITCH IN THE MATRIX